I’m straying away from the Keto how-to for a minute or two, anyone following along is still out buying vacuum sealers and BBQ’ing rations like some sort of doomsday prepper… and I just wasn’t feeling writing it.
I considered not writing anymore, and Kabosh’ing the Blog project.
My Reddit account got deleted at some point in the last couple weeks. I know, trivial stuff BUT, there was a lot of history there. I had used Reddit extensively to keep progress, find feel-good motivational junk and so forth. This account is where a progress picture went crazy and this all unfolded, and as ridiculous as it sounds – if you looked at the top post of all time in /motivation there my fat ass was not so fat.
Gone, all of it.
I thought it might be a sign that it was time to turn a new leaf, maybe a blessing in disguise that it was wiped out. I made it, am at my goals, and really no need to share anymore, right? I fired up a new account either way and made a post or two, unenthusiastically. I wasn’t really expecting this to come away from it.
And then I remembered why this started. A comment on a progress picture someone posted was a huge “Aha” moment in finding the right keys to low-carb, and showing it was possible. As many messages and nice words that people had sent in the last few months, most were questions or congrats – out of the woodwork came someone I had unknowingly paid the “Aha” moment forward to. I’m still processing how I feel about this, other than humbled and small in the grand scheme of things.
Sharing progress pictures and personal stories sucks. You face a you that you are ashamed existed and share it with strangers. I am proud of coming back but am not proud to have put myself in a situation to HAVE to come back. Around the same time as I’m chewing on this, I came across an email I thought had been lost of my original files – my MRI from 2 years ago.
It was an instant flashback to what was going on then, and the few months of uncertainty following that. It was a reminder of the war fought, the battles still going. It was a reminder of why I fired up a random ass Blog with a seemingly cheesy “Can-Do” theme – as much as I hate it sometimes it’s how I have to live... and if sharing that shows another person they can break the chains, it’s worth putting out there.
So, long story short – I’m fairly inspired again. The layout of the site is going to change, and I’m not sure the direction the Blog will go – I’ll circle back to Keto here and there, but I’d much rather focus on overcoming the hand that life has dealt you, and defying the conventional thought of what can be done about it.
Thanks for turning the lights back on, Internet Stranger.
-A
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